I get the feeling that lately nothing ever really lasts
I keep trying to get up but I keep falling back
And you love, and you hate, and you wait
Cause one minute goes fast

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P1 to P6 Lily ! (: (Actually I think Graceyow went to Ixora but hell it was like half a decade ago)

So Y(doyouevengoto)JC really loves mushing up celebrations together, what misers. Carboot sale wasnt very amazing more so the performances. Coupled to Chinese being such a dsvdvidsnf and PW lecture so coldddd and brrrr, I went to school for nothing.

Bumped into so familiar faces, Fengxian! 1/2 of the pair I so often raved about because Bella is sooooo prettty I reckoned! hehe. Then, ehh Hannah, Penelope&Clarrise omg Secondary 2friends we remained no more just passing faces in school (quite sad haha), Charmaine (but I didnt say hi hehe), and a whole lot people whom I only know by their faces &names save for a few.

I let the knot loosen, so I'm less bitter. Please let this prevail pleasepleaseplease

out!

N, 9:52 PM



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Today we were competent (I hope) ushers





Aww Kenny is way too cute :D

Then we went to watch Dirah and Allison perform! So bimbotic my dear (:

Fooled around @the quadrangle, camwhored and I lugged my veryveryvery drained self to Borders with Jac. You're welcome ai de and sorry for no dinner ):

I thought long &hard, and I realised all along I've given up on her and to speak the truth, I'm so put off by all the stupid pranks she has up her sleeves. I'm such a dysfunctional daughter bloodyhell.

Took the longest walk/stroll home cause I was seriously so beat, sorry for the lack of betterdeserved vocab. &it wasnt because I went to town inspite of all the hunger and blah. If I am to start seeing things clearly and behave properly, please promise things will look up.

out

N, 11:24 PM



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left with no soul to bare, gone are the sob stories to share.

Other than getting back my csepaper, pig blowing incessantly at her newfound bestfriend whistle &dinner at lj, today was a typical WTF went wrong day. I hope for a safety landing and the harder thing to believe is I actually hold the key to that dammned lock.

Why like that? You tell me.

p/s when you're reading this pig, I hope you're like cleanly showered and nice smelling. haha

Maybe I'm closet emo!

N, 10:02 PM





I bless the day I found you (:

4hours++ with smelly was so good! talked, shared soooo ssooooo much. your mooncake (greedyass) will come soon okay wo hen ai ni :D

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so noelle took mc today! (: i cant afford to go late okay, i'll get inhouse and my lovely classmates will miss me too much. besides my detention defects end THIS SATURDAY! omg. the euphoria.

hairspray was yum!

i just did the msn call thingaling with diraaa! i need earpluggs heh birthdaygift okay peeeeperr!

my Tuesday was cool, i hope yours was too!

N, 11:51 PM



-

the fire is getting hot again
but i touch the flame cause i'm a curious cat
creeping where i dont belong
finding out what i knew all along

fairytales from so long ago,
save them for someone that's not smart enough to know.



N, 9:48 PM



just when its getting good
i slowly start to freeze
jus when its feeling real
i put my heart to sleep

-

Maybe I misperceived, sorry.

EoM, WR &monopoly test. Shoot me.

N, 2:52 PM



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i thought i could resist you
i thought that i was strong
somehow you were different from what ive know
i didnt see you coming
you took me by surprise

DIRAAAAAAAAHHH says Noelle Yong makes her speechless(:

and mygoodness AI DE &I saw some really stupid men in the train. so there was this Indian man in a fcuk plain white tee, then maybe at amk or bishan, 2 Chinese men in plain black longsleeved tees came and sat down on either side of the Indian dude, friends they were. point is, the Chinese fella went

" eh come we oreo together ah oreo "

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA so stupid

smelly and i are meeting next Tuesday ! (:

lonnnnggggg Pw meeting tmr, at my house!

&im so smelly unlike some other who bathed and is clean smelling ): and thankyou for listening to the motherlyissues kayyyyy :D

N, 10:38 PM



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I think several people asked, but sad to say, things with mom are still not looking up yet. I'm stuck &I simply dont know how to get out of this rut.

Sch suckedsuckedsucked, many freakingass reasons. &I ate like a pig dammit

CSEtest & a whole load of Econsssssssss essayscrap to do, she's so bloody annoying.


'twas a tragedy, and we're both victimized, really.

N, 8:19 PM



):

stupid time of the month, stupid everything else.

jjc is so efffffffffffing cheeeeeeeena ): and freezing LT and stuck somewhere so faraway my butt was so numb from taking 157.

my Wednesday wasnt very cool, how was yours?

N, 8:26 PM



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somethings I just am too stupid to figure out myself. very irritating

today 129 was very loserkidzzzzz cause sheliaa wasnt around and then we played below the usual PE standard against the 126 boyzzzzz. it was 5boys and us! ): whooops

tomorrow will be coolbeans because we're gna see lesterlim the entire day! &&& i'm in the yjc photoalbum! they caught me drawing on milia's birthdayballoon hehe

there's this gigantic dot Kristin used her stupid marker to poke on my elbow and I just cant scrub it off! how great now it looks like a semi-mole & people are gna think I dont shower cleanly enough ):

I'm scripting what to say to smelly when I give her her surprise phonecall. hehe must be one full of love and one that will make her very eager to seee me! :D

am planning to sleep early, out!

N, 8:59 PM





N, 10:17 PM



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sad sad International Hist. test tmr, leaves tonight no time to think of you, or anything else.

12 lectures to memorise, not yet done with any, how wonderful! but the coming of tmr is still very much exciting. (:

coldcold day, shower (BRRRRRRR) and time to hit the notes. outtttt


time to face the music of Pw! );

N, 5:42 PM



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Tonight was spent talking with Pig &her trying to look at my cleavage haha. We're 2 troubled peeps.

Now I have friedprawnmee &satay &I'm really too full to eat it. ):

I should just wait &wait.. &wait... something good please happen soon.

N, 11:26 PM



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many silver linings today. firstly, Ms Karmen called! then Eve &Kristin listened patiently (Eve, tmr nighttt :D), then I saw ahgong, then veryvery surprisingly, Amelia rang me (: &she's giving me a lolly on Mon! thenn now Ms Beautiful is being very concerned. Thank you all!

Seeing my group members in the msn contact list doesnt make things better though. This afternn was classic. Me bawling, Sarah arguing (fine she's the passive member &I'm the mean leader), Yangrong shouting. Too embarrassing to recall.

So anyway! we went to ahgongs house to watch the 7pm show! Nicole is bestfriends with him now and Eve &I are jealous. Pig took SO many pictures behind our backs, literally! &cheerup dwarf, I'm sure you'll figure out something definite soon (:

Detention &more detention .... tomorrow Dawn &I have got lotsssaaaa company! (: ThankyouEBERYbody for asking if I was okaayyy when you noticed I had cheeks so red and eyes so beyond puffy. Pw sucks, period.

ps/ uhoh, we're in trouble.

N, 11:43 PM



And people asking how I'm doing
But every question still has you
I say I'm fine
And I never think about you
But you're always on my mind

guess it's still kinda hard isn't it.

-

I look at him and I simply am able to start tearing. I did, actually. They weren't of sorrow or any of hatred or any of dispair. I'd like to think they were the result of brimming love.

Simply too lazy to start on GP, I'm horrible like that. &my painstakingly studied &memorised Chinese thingamajigs got postponed to tmr, just like that. So very annoying.

Tomorrow is Friday. Thank God for this speedy schoolweek, I had just about enough. Will be irritating with Eve, brought forward SSP, 7.40am tilllll 9pm. I will conquer school. (:

&again, it's so easy to lose faith.

N, 10:32 PM



I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

-

Soon, soon I will summon my guts &ask my mom if she's fine or just being very mean &spiteful.

Skipped training. ooops but I was really honestly feeling horrible. the phoneconversation with her didnt exactly turn out for the better and I just felt really warm and uncomfortable.

things are so beyond screwed up. &there's a hist. outline, Internet &Intellectual Property presentation, stupid chinese test( &I dont even have the notes to study, how great! really )

time to work hard. out!

N, 9:07 PM



-

Congratulations, Mom has reached the grisly phase of.. The Unreasonable ):

Her (removes my phone from the couch &puts it down not-so-gently on my table) :
Dont leave your phone there when you're sitting here.

Behold. Seriously, what is wrong?!

Anyway! tdy it was quite swell for reasons I will not say. Sorry Eve &Prissy! but I know you enjoyed your evaaaaaning with me. :D

Netball tmr. Major ): &please please please no more detention on Saturday booohooooo

Imma do myself justice cause I did good for CSE. Tonight I'll go bed thinking of the possibilities hehe.

out!

N, 10:23 PM





(: happy 9th dear boy!

tdy I was a foodie again. Sea test tmr &I know zilch about my content dammit. think I'll end up cutting cselect. tmr to study ):

so anywayy tdy I saw very little of (na)dirah ): tmr we're both busy I think. blaahh

I still hate the night. I loathe every bit of it.

N, 11:02 PM



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Ild like to think Im actually very hardworking, no really.

buttttttt things arent exactly working with me when I only have 2 words on the second page of my Intl essay. whooops

on the brighter side! I finished arranging her file and wrote down whatever clever ideas I had for my paper, so all Im left with are brainless copying and tada! Ill be done

tdy we went out for lunch to celebrate a birthday! ate like pigs again. shit I need to stop. it's so hard, y'know.

ec essay due as well, luckily I have tvprogrammes lined up backtoback all the way till 10+++.

oh, I also need to figure out how to get back to talking to mom. tedious week ahead! outttt.

p/s
`JACKIE (: says:

hello hello! tmr's monday, so in case i dont get to see you, do remember that JACKIE LOVES YOU (:

N, 8:41 PM



-

i think today deserves a full blow(haha)-by-blow.

detention was a breezee tdy whooops i think we were the only 2 smartalecs that didnt attend the later session and i totally cut sssp hehe. anyway that wasnt impt, my point is glut and i were totally living it up after that.

no wonder we're the gluttons (maybe we can have our own on-air program hehe) we had BaliThai alacarte-style buffettt! (: there were the must-have tomyumsoup, kangkong, spicycrispyfishfillet, (2)oysterkailan, chickensatays, pandanchicken (theyre actually just grilled chickenyy), mangosalad (it was so raw and sour and green but our dear girl loved it), & tahugoreng!

its really great cause we were full after that, but we werent like bloated or needed to puke. & we were sensible we didnt get any food after that! plusssss there was this really cute indian waiter with a nose stud. adequate entertainment we call it!

so anyway i got home really peeved. my front door is very stupid. the key just cant open it so i was so dumbly locked out, with a key in hand. how idiotic can that look?! luckily my mother moved to this house with the intention of living near my auntie.

Dad : I'm so hungry !
Me : YAAAAA me toooo man

Dad : I only had meesoto during lunch at 12 tdy ):
Me : Whooops (inserts embarrassed smiley)

HAHA i ate so damn bloody much, sssshhh dont tell the man. (fyi we both had yummy chickenrice after discussing :D someday i will binge myself till i cant anymore)

It's Saturday! where's yeamerrrrrrrrrrrrr

yay tmr's Sunday! means what??? means father will be home. we've been chummy recently. i have a lunch date tmr! it'll be like 2 big kids with a little mischievous one in tow. haha. that's so raven's on soon! im out!

p/s whatever we discussed on Fri night by the pool didnt come true Ballxxx! bu yao dan xin horrrzzzzz <3

N, 8:07 PM



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thegreatescape was great, but the acoustic version is so much betterrrr!

today was such a drag. I just cldnt lay hands on anything I liked. some dfoinkvgewfoibes ah soh stole my bag from me ): I am very peeved and unhappy.

how great I have to serve bloody detention tmr. and I freaking missed the 9oclock show=bryanwong=not gay, ballxx! I dont want to go to school! I know I sound like a childish little prick (for the lack of a better word, pardon the extent of the vocab), but I cant just dismiss the fact that seeing people I dont like on a Saturday is not very helpful (shit, i need to read more) to build up to a great weekend to come.

I want for so much to label people, to put names to all my fustration-directed schoolmates. Quite frankly, I dont like alot of them. whooops.

I wanna eat someeee sashimi, where are you dear annoying kristin?

k cant wait for 2 weeks to come my dress finding was sooooo damn unsuccessful!! ):

Im full of complaints and distaste for anything and everything, out.

N, 10:59 PM



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finished zeee new book! 'twas so good i cant stop so i emerged victorious yessssssssss.

dad cooked and 'twas coolbeans too.

tdy even though ive been so fully concentrated and absorbed in my book, my mind never fails to stray from time to time. soon i'll know, or soon maybe all this will end. i hope it isnt the latter. it was quite comfortable and nice while it lasted.

i have no test on Mon! sheesh i thrive on such meagre reasoning ): alright i shld go do some plucking(haha) see u tmr dear moss! :D

N, 8:30 PM




haha nicoleohsoannoying.

anyway tdy was horrible at the beginning. it was so humid and the rays were so piercing ): 3-in-1 not fun! not at all.

thennnnn we met junai! :D

shopping wasnt very productive, (as was yesterday boo) but at least i managed to squander away my times voucher. quite the miser ij is hehe.

yay imma see moss omg like finally! fri afternn and then ballxxxxx at night!

i still have my 9-5 selfstudyhours on sat. !!!!

ohhhh SWEEET SWINGING SEVENTEEN AMILIA! (: lubbbbbb

N, 10:20 PM



what makes you different,
makes you beautiful

what's there inside you,
shines through me.

(:

<3 smelly!!

anw im very full and in no more mood to blog haha.

N, 10:17 PM



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jaden smith is so cutee !

my long weekend is drawing nearr.... oh guess what! my lovely friends made me a bib today. all because the aunty gave me breastmeat and it was so iufbskjdf tough to cut and then i had my <3 bakchormee and the chilli oil just splat all over my blouse. hee hee its quite cute

tmr is tuesday! which means what! which means i shld go get some shopping moolah. yay i can see smelly tmrr!! im making ur cardeee now <3

k i shall sleep soon tmr out!

N, 10:32 PM



hello everybody meet mudsterr!
he can get quite noisy, just mute it oright. hehe

i must start revising for zeeee test

out!

N, 3:27 PM





N, 8:34 PM



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it's been such a long and tiring week coming. my (less than) hectic schedule ends at .... 5pm tmr! im sorry if i sucked at blocks and have to go back for sssp and im also sorry for being sucha damn stupid sleepyass and i have 2 more saturdays of detention to go ):

tdy the stupid bombshell for my pw had to drop. imma fail imma fail...

btw, nat ho is so cute right! i was grinning like an idiot while he shaved his head haha. hair or no hair, still humsum!

andd my goodness, the picture below is unglam.com i was considering taking it down, but it was a good gesture, esp from someone like smelly. kay its staying haha tues settttttt <3

i alry planned out the itinerary for tmr yay! im so organised now everything feels a wee bit better. ok i need sleep, out!


i knw shaf will miss that face! :D

/ if patience is what i need, then patience is what i have

N, 10:10 PM





N, 1:01 AM



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(:


was adamant on doing the gp essay so i painted my toenails hehe. now theyre done im getting to my essay. and i have some cuba outline to prepare. &im contemplating skipping morning intensive. bloodyhell.

tdy was 2 birthday cakes, one pink box of candies, megahuge card, haivianas, sparklers, random bouts of screams and tonzzzz of pictures! yet another loveleh turned 17. (:

tdy netball was cancelled ! (: whoaseh the joy!

cant wait for looooooooonnnng weekend to come. jaychou! and ballxxxx and hopefully smelly. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">`JACKIE (: says:
hammie loves you!

hahahahahhahaha. my ass

kay ill go do work. out!

p/s aaahhh bryanwong is hotstuff

N, 8:55 PM

chijTOAPAYOH (4/9ohsix!); yjc ctg129 07


Lovelies
♥alanaa
♥beckss
♥ballxxx
♥diraaa
♥glutt!
♥nehhh
♥phyllis
♥secret admirer
♥smellyyy